today is a very tiring day...had our audition at 11 till 12 and more practise after that...dance practise is the time when you see your friends in an angle that you've never seen before...the "arr-ness" that is soon to be discovered...this saturday!lol.the way they shake =P!anyways there are a few other dance groups and their dance is nice too!my performance today kinda sucked...as I danced I looked at the audience and outta sudden it seems like theres only me in the world....my body is in school,on the stage...but I'm not sure wheres my mind and soul....and then I realized that I'm not doing what everyone else is doing...so I continued and got back on track....imagine my feeling when I saw the headmistress looking at me and my mistakes...so mempersiasuikan man!sighh...although dance practise is very tiring,its gonna be over after this saturday..and I shall miss these moments...those crazy friends...and all....ehh and the way they always hit,kick or stepped on my feet by accident....kinda funny although it kinda hurt...I'm actually too tired to come online coz after one half a day of "shaking vigorously"(not I say eh okay!)I just wanna sleep...dont even feel like eating...but terpaksa coz gastric sucks....and today I got another sms from that whosoever guy who kacau-ed me and throw insults at me and I dont even knw who the hell he is...damn frustrated!always call me and talk a whole lotta crap nonsense...I dont answer his calls anymore after knowing that he is such a sicko...but its still very annoying lah..haunted by an I-dont-know-who.... I thought its just a prank from CKW and gang..but now I dont think so....

Happy Belated Birdday Delon! and Happy Birthday Celine!

hey Im here to wish two of my good friends a very happy birthday!Delon's was yesterday and today is Celine's birthday!



This...is Delon...he's a cool and fun person to hang out with...he can be serious at times but the crazy version of Delon Kang Ti Lun is so much better....hmmm....what else do I knw?he's also a very good friend... lol anyways here I would like to wish him all the best in everything lahhh...good life,great results,and a hot gf (=D!!!)...hahaha!Happy Belated Birthday Delon and I'm sorry for being late =D





And this....is Celine...shes been my good friend since form1 when I discovered her while singing in class....haha....she too, is a nice and funny person to talk to...and how much we love the "Prangin-mall-shopping!".shes got talent! she can sing and play the violin. =D okay so...Happy Birthday Celine! Have a great day! =) XOXO lol!

5 in the morning,and the alarm clock rings.I pressed the "snooze" button and sleep again.I was awaken by sis when she asked me what is the time and I said "5 o'clock" before both of us jumped outta bed.We are late and we're supposed to be in the airport by 5.55am.We got ready and went to the airport in two cars,sis and her friend in another and I'm with aunt in hers.The road seems dark,quiet and deserted.....Am I too oblivious of my surroundings or am I just drowned in my own feelings?I cant tell....


Sis has been here since the 20th of May.How upset I was coz I was not allowed to get her from the airport on the day she came back...coz tht time H1N1 damn popular ma...I was in school the next day when this junior calls my name loudly and said that someone's looking for me...I know it is her....I ran towards her and we gave each other a massive hug...But I didnt see her that often because at that time she was staying at another friend's house...Few weeks passed and we wanted to go to KL together..and so we did...great time we had there....3 main things we did everyday...shop,eat,gossip...and shes been staying with me since we got back from KL....we went to redbox twice and we really had a wonderful time singing the same song that whosoever is singing next door because they sing damn loud and teruk and we just wanna prove ourselves better.. Sis goes out everyday...I seldom see her when I get back from school...but somehow,just knowing that shes here makes me feel better even if we dont spend much time together (bed time not counted!)


And as the car moves,tears formed in my eyes.Looking back at all the mischievious things that we've done and all the things we can do in so lil time...When will I see her again?I think about the way I've been behaving since she came back...I was mean...real mean...many times I prefer to just shut up than talking to her....because I feel like she didnt come back for us...she didnt come back for me....and I feel neglected...
The road ahead is really dark..it is covered by shadows of the trees...and the nearer we are to the airport,the more I wished that today never comes...but I know that I have to face the reality....

When we get to the airport theyre already there....We sat in McD and talked...through all the laughters all of us know that deep inside we are all gonna burst in tears...Soon aunt gotta go to work so I asked sis's friend whether he can send me home coz I still wanna hang around with them and he said okay....Time flies and sis gotta go...I stand there staring at her,because if I talk I know that I'm gonna be too emotional...she hugged me but I didnt hug her...I just cant...she asked me not to cry....so I hold my tears back....Her friend and I stood there for a while after shes gone in...then we left....

Sis texted me in the car and I cant hold it any longer. I broke down.... She got into the plane and she called us and we talked for 15minutes and 36 seconds through the loudspeaker.....after that she hung up....when I got back I cried again...I looked into the room and at the bed...which used to be messed up with my sister's stuff....now its so clean and empty....I'm all alone now...I'm kinda alone all this while,but now there's this empty feeling inside....I miss her and I love her....because she is my family..... ='(









here's a vid tht we took in kl

CPTees Food and Fun Fest

Hello!Today I'm here to invite my friends (those I havent invited) to my school's food and fun fest which will be held on the 1st of August from 9am-3pm in my school which is SMK Convent Pulau Tikus,Penang.And those that Ive invited I hope y'all can make it lah. =P There'll be food,performances,and Girls!LOL I knw a few of you find this info very useful.hahha just joking lah!Anyways you can get the coupons from me or other CPTarians. you can also get it on the day itself.So dont worry.Try to come k?=D whoops the pics are not clear paiseh

Im a prisoner of my own feelings

Hello peeps!everyone alright?Ive been lazy to blog plus Im not in a good mood lately.well seriously,I dont know how am I supposed to be feeling...Im just so....easily angered?People asked me whats wrong..and I'll either say "Im not in the mood" or "nth Im alright." no one knws more...this morning while waiting for the geography girls to finish their test,I just sit and stare until I got really sick of my surroundings.So I decided to write a poem...I feel better expressing myself this way...


Prisoner Of My Own Feelings

Trapped in my own feelings,
There is no way out,
Taken over by emotions and mood swings,
I really dont knw what my life's all about.

Now in school,sitting right here,
I'm writing this with a heart full of anger,
And I do knw that if i cant control my temper,
Soon I'll set everyone else on fire.

Sometimes I'll just sit and stare,
while deep inside,my mind wanders everywhere,
or at times I might just cry,
There must be a reason, but Im not sure why.

I'm a prisoner of my own feelings,
A case of emotion instability,
when I'm sad and I'm hurting,
no one is there to listen to me,
seriously,I just wanna be happy.

I try to cheer up, by writing or singing,
cause there's nth else that I feel like doing,
that's the only way I can express my feelings,
now,right after I finish writing,
the burden on my shoulders are lifted,
and lil by lil,
my pain eased away....



whoaa seriously I'm like now not that sad d...hahaha...well I hope y'all liked my poem...haha sorry for mistakes or wrong words tht I used...I wrote it with my mind tht wandered off somewhere else...aiyah nvm lah cincai..LOL have a great day! shall I say night?lol u get what I mean lah... =D