Today was supposed to be a happy day right?

I was very happy in POD..

what happened after that?

I got home,

that was what happened.

Aunt couldn't stop nagging me.

Does she know that going to church and POD is the only happy thing that I can do?

All she cares was her own feelings.

What about mine?

I have been going through 11 years of physical and mental torture in her grasp.

Have I got a choice?

Can I not suffer anymore?

Now I know that my happiness went down the drain 11years ago.

She wants us all to understand her feelings,but she has never made an effort to know how we feel.

All she did was to act humble in the eyes of others.

Many times she gave me hope,

and she enjoy watching those false hopes crashing down on me.

I am very tired okay?

What hurts is that the person who is supposed to be there when I cry,

didn't manage to be.

Do you know how many times do I feel like giving up already?

I might not be as strong if S2 hadn't ask me to not give up.

But I do not know how long more can I go on.

Everyone's patience has its limits.

Mine is not exceptional.

Anyways heres a song for y'all.Got introduced to me by Neil yesterday and I fell for it since then.

Katharine McPhee Ft. Zachary Levi - Terrified Lyrics

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting start
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
in my only

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

*Its true, I only said it because I mean it,shootingstar..*