helloo~
I've been okay laa these few days...my classmates aren't actually as complicated as I thought. Haha...I have a newly discovered friend Ell May and she's like...whoa! haha...! She actually came to school with her pillow last week! Most teachers don't even dare to scold her...thts our "May Jie"..hahaha...well I am goin to KL with bro on the fifth day of chinese new year to see a Chinese physician there for my kidney condition which is at stage 4 now.Dunno how long am I gonna be there.. 2days? a week?a month?lol. I need a break from this house I'm living in...we are packed with homework and activities and I get really mad when I come home to find housework waiting for me. Stressed tau?Two different counselors a week. Not even sure whether they're helping.Nth much lah I gotta go do those damn housework again....bye bye...

hi ppl...nth much for me to say...school?sucks coz now there seems to have something boiling up in my classmates and juniors and I might be involved. Hated for being with friends hmm?health?might need to move to KL coz bro found me a doctor there. =( sad lah.... Dont wanna leave my friends here...if I go over, it means, new school, new friends, new environment and all?sighh.... I dunno what la really....this blog is gonna be dead soon coz as some of you know, I'm blogging more at the other side. so...take care people...

Hello....sorry coz I have been busy and not in the mood lately....started schooling again on the 8th and I gotta catch up with homework...I'm getting used to my classmates and their behaviours and I try my best to either blend in or completely stay out.... doesn't really matter...as for my health, I went to the doctor yesterday and through my blood test results we know that my kidneys are becoming worse...when I got back, Roger told me about the CLHS news and I was flabbergasted. Life is short ain't it? We will never know when will be our last "tomorrow". Bro called and yelled at me last night. Its a good thing because finally I burst in tears. Didnt know why I didn't cry in the afternoon but I feel so much better after crying last night. I went to check out WaiJin's blog earlier and found out tht his ex girl passed away on the 11th of January. sad isn't it?what about me?when will be my last goodbye?Doctor said for now I don't need dialysis,yet. Can I not do it if I have to? Maybe if I die, many people's lives will be better?One less trouble and burden to look after. My ending will be the best for people who wants me outta their lives. Sometimes you never know when you hurt me,probably you've forgotten that I could feel. I will not blame y'all lah. Everyone has got bad days. For those who has forgotten me, I'm sorry for once existed in your lives. Maybe someday, sometime, you will look back and find me there.......somewhere........

I'm sorry.....

hey ppl! I discovered this song while emo-ing around youtube.... its a nice song.....

Tommy Reeve - I'm Sorry

I know I wasn't there
When you needed me the most
I know I didn't care
And was afraid to get so close
Tonight it's getting hard to fall asleep
'Cause it's becoming clear that I broke all into pieces
And I can not reverse it
So I've got one more thing to say

I'm sorry for your pain
I'm sorry for your tears
For all the little things I didn't know
I'm sorry for the words I didn't say
But what I still do
I'm still loving you

I know I let you wait
I've been away for far too long
But now I can relate
To everything that I did wrong
Stop breathing when I think I'm losing you
And there'll be no excuse so I'm on my knees
So listen please
Let me hold your hand once again

I'm sorry for your pain
I'm sorry for your tears
For all the little things I didn't know
I'm sorry for the words I didn't say
I'm sorry for the lies
I'm sorry for the fights
For not showing my love a dozen times
I'm sorry for the things that I've called mine
But what I still do
I'm still loving you

I'm sorry for your pain
I'm sorry for your tears
For all the little things I didn't know
I'm sorry for the words I didn't say
I'm sorry for the lies
I'm sorry for the fights
For not showing my love a dozen times
I'm sorry for the things that I've called mine
But what I still do
I'm still loving you

That's what I will always do

well..... its exactly what I wanna say....anyways heres the youtube link for the song.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1fj5PBREzw&videos=RjRb7i4Owo8

My 2009 Christmas Celebration

okay.....christmas is just another day....no mood lah this year...usually my cousin sister Esther will have a christmas buffet for friends and family at her

house here in SS17 but this year we didnt do it coz her wretched maid ran away two months ago.....anyways,yesterday my cousin and her hubby brought me,bro and aunt to Concorde Hotel for lunch.There were many dim sums and I took pics of them..

These are the first six dim sum dishes that we had. hahaha sorry I dunno what are they I just eat nia....XD

since I've got the receipt I think this is the Steam Fish Ball. They say its nice but I don really know the difference between this and the normal ones.

"Siew Mai"

sorry I am not sure what this is. =P

"Chicken Claws"

Glutinous Rice "Lor Mai Gai"

This is the shrimp chee cheong fun. They have char siew and scallop ones too.

"Xiao Long Bao"

We saw this Santa at the lobby after we left the restaurant. He's young and thin la this guy! LOL. Bro and sis asked me to go get those lil gifts tht he was giving. I got a box of color pencils =.=

Well thts all for lunch. We all came back to rest after tht and soon we were busy getting stuffs ready for our lil japanese family steamboat for dinner.

Quite alot of food such as Black Cod fish from Europe, another type of cod from America,enoki mushrooms,fishballs,and many more.

Not to forget the "shirako" which is also known as salmon sperm or intestines tht Im not sure. I didnt know until I swallowed.

Some pics below.

we had four bottles of wine including red,white and fruit wine. Dinner starts at 7 and ends at 10pm. Bro brought me to the 12.30am movie with his friend. We watched "the treasure hunter" and how it sucks. Many ppl walked outta the cinema. Movie ends at 2smth in the morning and we came back to rest.

We are going back to Penang tomorrow. I hate to go back as much as I hate to be here when I first came. Maybe because the mission of my heart has not been accomplished.

Actually there are a lot more pics tht Ive taken but I dont see the need to post them all.

Tht's all for today. Goodnight and I love you!

Just got back from Asia Cafe. Earlier on,bro brought me out at 11+pm to meet up with his chick and some friends who came to visit KL from their college in Nilai. There were two cars,one with me,bro,sarvin(bro's chick) and Alan (a black guy from another part of the world)and the other car was driven by Sarvin's female friend with three other black guys.(sorry I dunno where they came from so I have to describe them in colors. XD).okay anyways,I realized tht I've forgotten to bring my ID along when we were quite a distance away from home. I was kinda worried but after a while I decided to give up worrying.
Our first stop was KLCC. Nothing much there except couples and families enjoying the midnight view of the place. Bro and his chick were indulging themselves in the romantic atmosphere while I stared into blank space. After a while the guys decided to go to clubs and bistros in Bukit Bintang but my bro cant go coz he brought me.LOL.The plan is to leave them there and we'll go somewhere else. So we headed to Bukit Bintang.Unfortunately,my brother took a wrong turn and we ended up in a police block.I was like cursing myself for not bringing my ID. Tht cop asked my bro for his driving licence while a few others looked into our car. He asked my bro whether I'm a malaysian and my bro said yes and tht I'm his sister.They then ask for Alan's passport but he didnt bring.He has only got his student ID.Thankfully,they didnt ask for mine or I'll be doomed. We got away safely but its time to worry about the car tailing us coz Sarvin's friend is the only malaysian in the car with 3 other guys.
They were asked to off the engine and all of them got outta the car. One of the guys didnt bring any document with him at all. Her friend texted Sarvin to ask for help and support but the road is too busy for us but we turn back anyway. Bro was like cursing all the way. Then we got a call from Jiss saying tht theyre free to leave.
Plans to go to clubs and all has been cancelled and we went to Asia Cafe in SS15 instead. We got back at 3smth this morning. I love the adventures XD

People,I'm not the tht type of girl who goes to clubs and all. I dont usually go out till tht late anyway.Its just tht sometimes I need a break from almost everything.Well thts about it. owh ya! To one person,Im sorry for texting you at 12.24am! I just feel like doing so. HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!!!

Happy Birthday Matt!

Hello! Today is another of my good friend's birthday! So... Happy Birthday Matt!

He's 15 this year and is currently in KL. A good friend really...Well at least good enough for me to load him with my problems....

Hahahaha.....

Saw him in Sunway yesterday......I was there and he was there too....

He can shuffle kay......go watch his shuffle videos in youtube lah....

kindly click on the links provided.....if u wanna watch lah lol....just for your information he is HCS chester....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DnjfV2ovq48&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch? v=krfACHcOzjs&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVo-cf658lI&feature=related

there are alot more I think but I didn't watch liao.....

Anyways that's all.....once again...Happy Birthday Matt!!!!