Have you ever felt hurt when someone is good to you?I'm feeling this way now...I'm so used to being left invisible that I cannot get used to the way City Harvest members treating me...its like, they try to make me feel belonged but I know that I never will...like I told Terfu, I really cannot take another person walking out of my life...Chu Hai said I've been trying too hard...I think so too...

Lets get back to the start of today...Lol...

Early this morning TanChin texted me and told me that he could fetch me and I don't have to take the bus...then I kept texting Charmaine but she didn't reply....so I went alone...started blabbing alot when I got into his car...wanted to vain more in his "pink pink" car but was busy texting Ngee May(she only replied once =.=)

only managed to get one presentable pic from his car...

(my phone camera bad quality lahh)

Get to church...pity him lahh cause I'm such a drag...

then ah...I keep being emo so no mood to write too much lah...

then saw Chu Hai my ex-"private nurse" who forced me to eat broccoli when I was admitted...talked to him until I became TOO emo...

after that okay already lahh...

mood got better...

Something's wrong with my heart...

VERY...
and yet I forced a smile through...
how long else do I have to hide?

Hello Kitty was a banana today because he's yellow...

that was random..

=/

I just feel like blogging...

TerFu knows the rest of the story..

Goodnight..

Sighhh....SPM's comin! Poor Adrienne got forced to teach me maths today...Lol...

Went to get our SPM seating in the hall...couldn't sit with my classmates because me and another two girls are the last three among all the students...sighh...and yeah,I'm gonna be ALL ALONE  during literature on the 9th of December because no one else is taking any other exams at that time...and the last test that I've done was last year's trials... =.=

Keep trynna force maths into my head....more maths tomorrow...aikss...can't get over maths now....the cold and cough aint helping....

went to get some books after school and hung around with Nadia and Nadirah a bit...

they accompanied me to the bus stop and saw 101 but too packed...

then I saw 103!

got high because 103 stops halfway up to my place and I don't have to walk so far up with my heavy bag...everyone else got down at different parts of Tanjung Bunga and the was only me left because my place is the last stop for 103...

got home...house so dark and gloomy...no one was in as usual...didi dada a lil bit...went to bathe,eat,etc...and now back to maths again...Lol

wish me luck for my BM this monday!

=)

Wait! THIS IS NOT OVER!
You guys gotta know that today is my good friend aka sister's birthday!
Remember Rups the Sugar?
Yeapp! Its her!

Rups is 18 alreadyy!
Well Rups,I hope you can face trials and challenges of life with more courage...
KL might have been harsh on you,
but PENANG LOVES YOU!
(patriotik pulak Lol)
Although I was not the first to wish you,
bear in mind that you're not forgotten.
because you're my oneechan!
=)
XOXO!

So stressed!!! Trials this Monday and I still can't get what I'm doing!
I've been staring at this math question from 9am-12pm and 2pm-4.30pm and from 8.33pm till now...
I do not care...giving up is no longer me...I'm gonna do this question until I understand how to get the answer just like yesterday...the satisfaction that you get after finding an answer on your own feels so good!
Gonna help Adrienne with her BM after school tomorrow and shes gonna help me with maths...
Saturday gonna haunt TanChin with my bluntness in accounts and maths... XD
The sudden change in me...its like...I just wanna improve myself!
and get rid of those shits who looked down upon me...I might not get straight A's...but as I promised Ngee May, I will do my best in SPM...
(p/s: Sissy Melody I'm thinking of my future and working my way to go there... =D )

When you need some one to care but no one was there...

yes...this is how I feel most of the time...

heaps of people will tell us that they'll be there...

but how many of them actually were?

almost zero, I think...

I've been through...few years back...

where I ask a friend why he wasn't there...

he said because I didn't look for him....

he has never thought that when I look for him,

he was not interested to offer me some comfort...

since then I never believed in whoever who says they'll be there...

unless,that person meant alot to me...

most comfort comes at the wrong timing,

where I just wanna keep quiet...

and cry silently...

but I do appreciate that..

most of you might think that I'm a cheerful girl...

how many of you actually seen inside my heart?

and when I need someone,

everyone vanished without a trace...

look around you when you need a shoulder to cry on...

how many were there for you?

 maybe I wasn't there for someone at some time...

but I won't say it if I don't mean it...

so just feel free to get me on the phone or anything...

if I ever said I'll be there...

if I didn't then forget it...

I wanna be a person that someone can count on...

Although my shoulder is a lil too low..

=)

=/

Take care!

Had a fun day at Gurney todayy! =)

Met Mathilda at the bus stop below at 11something...

bus came and I got excited because it shows 103...

The sign put 101...definitely 101 coz 103 doesn't go to Teluk Bahang...

Mathilda reads her notes even when we were in the bus... =.=

then we realized that we were wearing the same shoes! 

talked alot...too many things to catch up on...

got down at the bus station right in front of the school...

walked to Gurney...

met up with Ru Phing...

went to buy tickets for grown ups XD

went to Food & Tea,again!

talked while waiting for Lai Pheng...

The interior look of Food & Tea 

The four of us put together is just so not suitable...

Mathilda the crazy but act-serious type..

*chemical X!*

Me the play no study type...

*spice*

RuPhing the innocent type(not anymore since she went to KL)

*sugar*

And Lai Pheng...anime is all she loves..

*everything nice*

We're like ice kacang...all weird things mixed together makes good taste! XD

or powerpuff girls?

hahaha...

Pity RuPhing coz she made a wrong food-choice again!

Rups' dunno what fish thingy..

She couldn't be more miserable..

The view of Gurney Drive and the polluted sea...(Mat said so!)

Look at our bill =O
fatties! =X

The drinks,soups, and pirated turtle jelly...

Went up to 7th floor after lunch...saw a huge crowd queuing from the GSC counters to almost Max Gourmet...lucky that we got our tickets earlier....

The crowd we bypassed.. 


Then went daytona because we still have time...

Our driving practical machine...this one cannot go into the drain so no worries =P


After that went for our movie...

This bad quality pic was taken by Mat...
XD

We just hung around talking crap after the movie ended..
Took a pic of our shoes...


Came home.full stop.
Well it was a fun outing, to hang out with friends that are studying far away and back to smell our beaches.. =P

<3 them! 

=)

Hello!

I'm back from Boon Siew with Charmaine,Haslin and Rachel...

We went at 12smth and got back at 7smth...

Can't stop feeling excited because Boon Siew is so near to TAR college!

After lunch at 932 coffee shop we hung around at the playground while waiting for Ray to get down...

Charmaine at the other end of the exercise equipment

when Ray got down we moved from the playground to the basketball court...

barbecued our asses in the sun for half an hour or so,

sitting on the floor of the court... 

Charmaine missing her Sho  >.<

I noticed that Charmaine was wearing something on her ankle and she told me that it was her dog's collar!

I said I wanna wear so she took it off for me...

sistem barter..she was wearing my ring who was given by a friend,

so I want the dog collar..

=P

Then Ray asked whether we wanna go somewhere shady and of course we do!

Moved our asses from basketball court to the park nearby..

We sat on a cement thing under a tree and started talking loads of crap..

I was nervous because the Batu Gajah place is just a few steps away..

and there has been a few murder cases that happened over there...

so I just kept quiet and didn't talk much..

The dog collar on my ankle

vained a lil.. =P

Haslin flasher!!! XD

What is this?Bollywood style or what?o.O

Lol!

Charmaine's reaction when I said I'm gonna take her pic

And suddenly this Ray and Haslin went over to the Batu Gajah place!

They were out of sight in a few seconds so Charmaine decided to go look for them while I stay there to take care of our things..

my sensitivity took over and I heard a weirs,eerie sort of screaming..

it sounds distant...

and it comes from Batu Gajah!

I stayed calm while praying that they would return safely..

I sighed in relief when I saw Charmaine...

so we continued like nothing happened..

Charmaine and I went to buy something and on the way back to the park I saw someone who looks familiar but I just don't bother (LOL)

Ray And Haslin was already sitting on the floor..

like as if the cemented thing aint hard enough to kill...

I was silently hoping that I will see Apple around...

and then I saw Xiao Di walking by with his friend,looking at me..

Oh yea..he's the familiar person tht I just ignored..

Lol..

then Ray and Haslin decided to go home..

Charmaine and I was planning to go eat in Yam Sheng..

accompanied Haslin to the bus stop..

no bus..

wait...

wait...

wait...

one uncle said there'll be a bus at 6.10pm

wait...

wait...

wait...

NO BUS!!

Khi geram..

called Rapid Penang..

they said bus will be there at 7pm!

Fine..

Went to Yam Sheng and packed spaghetti...

went back to the bus stop..

Charmaine's mum was already there..

I waited with Haslin because they need to go get something...

gobbled my spaghetti up in 5minutes!

Bus came..

all went home...

Phewwww....this is so tiring! I wish outings would be simpler...readers will think that I'm long-winded...I think that's all for now k? I'm gonna suffer indigestion...

Good night

Good Morning Everyone! =)

Yesterday, Gaya called me and informed me that she's back from KL and asked me to go to Gurney...so yeahh...I called the cab uncle to take me at 12pm and rushed through housework...

cab uncle came at 12.13pm...

felt uncomfortable because he kept talking to me about things that I'm not interested in..

then he said don't call him uncle he's young enough to be my boyfriend... I was like, =O..why this man so perasan...I looked at his licence and found out that he's already 39! and he kept telling me about his home and cars that he owned and shit... I was hoping that he'd go faster...thank God Gaya called and I told him that I was in a rush...so he dropped me safely...being friendly is one thing...being TOO friendly is another...he's so scary...

Met up with Gaya and went to watch Vampires Suck...it was a funny movie but it kinda sucked.. =X

saw new Max workers when I came out of the cinema...what a horrendous sight! What happened to all the "better"-looking people? Lol...

After that we went to KimGary for lunch...

This is Gaya sucking up her HK Style Iced Coffee

then to Reject Shop coz Gaya needs to buy something... (Hahahaha!)

Can you imagine a guy wearing a pink and cartoonish boxer?I hope not...Lol

thought of going to the arcade and we met Charlotte,Kalvinder,Siew Wern,Elizabeth,Patricia,Joan,Jas, and dunno who else when they came out of Hall 3 watching Piranha...they said it was scary so I said I wanna watch it...so we bought tickets,went to "Daytona" at the arcade and I won both rounds lol...Gaya treated me to that movie...well..kinda love it until the hero died  at last =.=

we were about to leave Gurney when Euodia texted me and asked me to join them for dinner at Ananda..so I pulled Gaya along....got down in front of Flamingo Hotel and saw a rainbow!

The Rainbow Beside Flamingo

a City Harvest church member named Wei(something?) joined us and since the three of us were "fasting" we only watch Euodia attacking her rice served on a banana leave..

After that,we went to get Wei Yi and all of us went to Batu Ferringhi because she's gotta buy something for her someone...

Teased that Wei guy about his car with blue lights...called him Ah Beng...lmao...

Gaya left because she was staying in a hotel there...

after Wei Yi got what she wanted,

we all left and Wei (something?) sent me home first because I was the nearest to Ferringhi..

LOL-ed alot on the way down at the winding road...

really nice having them around..

=)

today's gonna be a GREAT day because all my good mates,RuPhing,Mathilda,Charlotte,TerFu and etc is already back!

*excited*

I hope that in this beautiful day,not only I will have a good time,

but all of you as well..

Take care!

=)