"Where Got Ghost?" and "Tsunami at Haeundae"

I went out with Ngee May earlier on...our main objective is to watch "Where got Ghost?"but we ended up watching the tsunami movie also aft the first movie coz the first movie ended at 6pm and we still have time...




"Where got Ghost" is a funny-and-scary movie...it makes us laughed like hell at certain parts but when its scary,its scaaaaryyy.....lol...I spend my time watching it with my eyes closed...and theres one scary part where Ngee May and I screamed! then we realized that only both of us were screaming at tht time...this movie ended with a touching scene...something like a part of the other Spore movie "Money No Enough"...but this time the mother came back to save her beloved sons....


as for the tsunami movie,it started off boring and funny at some parts.....but when the earthquake hits them and tsunami washes them away...there were many touching scenes which leaves May and I crying like shit nonsense.....its a nice movie...makes me realize how much I loved everyone around me....the part where the hero and heroine hang on tight to survive for each other is just so ugh!you knw?and the part where another hero gave up his life to save his beloved and also another person who can be considered as his rival in love......those scenes made me cry worst....how they hang on and how they sacrifice makes me think of this..what if another tsunami were to hit Penang and the whole Penang Island drowns with hundreds of thousands of people???(tht many?idk lah)I'll never die with the person whom I loved....


I gotta keep this short....hardly see whatever tht I'm typing....anyways I got a haircut before I went to prangin today and my long hair is only left with shoulder-length....hmmm....I gotta go....
I MISS YOU all =/

hello....good morning ppl...still sleeping heh?im supposed to be...but I woke up at 3.54am this morning after havin another dream...I heard dad's alarm ring but I ignored it anyway....I looked at my phone and theres a few unread messages so I ma reply la...lema baru realize no credit liao...cannot reply..so I try to get back to sleep but I cant...aft a while I heard my front door being opened so I went outta the room and I saw dad...he cant go to work today....so I washed my face and all....and online lor...so sien nia...no one to chat with...going off to read history soon...probably I will fall asleep soon after that eyyhh??hmmm......keep thinking alotta nonsense nowadays...Idk la what I wanna do.... =(



with me~sum41

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go



its a nice song...do listen to it..

I went to get my new specs last friday..and it turns out that I have burst blood vessels in my eyes....so I went to the hospital but at tht time no eye doctor liao...so the normal doc asked me to go back to the hospital on tues which is today aft my exams....I went with Gaya and her mum and the doctor said "I think its nothing serious"(or smth lidat coz I forgotten)and he asks me to go back in a month...I was kinda pissed coz I can hardly see what I'm writing in the exam hall and God knows what will happen in a month....for now I havent need the laser surgery coz he didnt actually check them thoroughly...yet...I hope I dont need it lahh...my eye kinda hurt now.... as Melody says,I come online to find comfort,but sometimes its just not that comforting...you know what I mean???its like.....seeing a person whom u want to talk to soooooo much....whom u miss...and stuff like that..but all u can do is to sit and stare and cry....and chilled down after a while...and then begin bursting into tears again......im not gonna put any smileys here,coz Im not happy and I wont pretend that I am...anymore.....for many many nights I cry myself to sleep....and this is where nightmares comes in handy...sweet dreams hurts more than nightmares...coz when I'm happy I will wake up to find it just a dream...at least if I have nightmares I'll be glad when its over....but sweet dreams haunts me forever....how many times do I have to wake up and yell "its just a FUCKING dream!!!!!"????I'm not sure.....

Hello people....how's everyone?I hope everyone's okay lah..Here is a short poem that I've written earlier on...



It's been raining
and the wind is ferociously blowing,
The leaves were wet,they seem to be crying,
How glad to know that nature understands my feelings.
Then I look up at the dark,gloomy sky.
I looked and I looked and I wonder why,
Where is the sky that was once blue?
Are they feeling sad,just like I do??
Somewhere in the distance,
Someone is happily laughing in spite of the rain,
I stood there longer,
hoping that the rain will wash away my pain.

obviously the rain didnt....but it kinda makes me feel better...Anyways I wanna write about this cute lil boy whom I discovered last friday.His name is Liu Han Wei..or smth lidat lah..I remember its Liu Han something... I went to the "ge tai" place which is a performing place in accordance to the chinese 7th lunar month...first night was boring lah..just two chicks singing nia..He came for the second night.Ｉwas somewhere running around with kids when his voice caught my heart. So I went over and took videos of him singing. The first song he sang was "Ni Shi Wo De Yan"(you are my eyes)




His voice and the song put tears in my eyes.


second song is a hokkien song but I dont knw wat song it is and im not interested anyway so lets move on to the third song, "Ai Ni De Zhi You Yi Ge Wo"(I'm The Only One Who Loves You)



Fourth song is JJ Lin's song I think...Idk the title. But I saw this uncle shaking his butt and I took that too!watch this!



After this he sang "Beat It" by Michael Jackson and I almost became his dancer when I think of those times The Phantom perform on stage...but I didnt lah...he's paid to sing..later I spoil his lil "concert" nia...




I dont knw what you think but I think that this kid is cool!looks like a lil chinese version of MJ.He sang another mandarin song after that but I didnt take vids anymore.Aunt said they pay RM100 for him to sing two songs which is RM50 per song and the money goes to dunno what fund.Imagine how much money he will get if he sings more.Hmmm...that's all lah...sighh...have to go to the hospital tomorrow...then counselling,counselling and MORE counselling! ugh!dont like lah coz those counsellors like so kay poh lidat...but have to lah...my depression will slowly eat me up if I dont....honestly....I feel so sad now....who knows?only me...well I guess now y'all oso knw d lah...Take care ppl...

I didnt go to school oso today...my two good friends "fever" and "sore throat" keeps coming and going as they like...all I wanna do today is to sleep...but aunt 'korek' me up to study...then ma nth lo...aunt asked me to hang the laundry...all almost done liao u knw!the last 3 pieces of aunt's stuff...i saw this freaking grasshopper with tht huge scary eyes staring back at me!!!damn! i ran and screamed like nobody's business and almost cried..but didnt...no one is at home and this really terrifies me...so went back to close the kitchen door....but when i turn again tht thingy is gone! scares me lahh...dont knw whether its in or outta the house now.... ugh!worse thing is i can hear something flying around the house............the 3items are still out there un-hanged....I'd rather be scolded tmr than to be thr...wondering whether its still thr and dunno whr it is...I feel so useless...im like....dunno how many times bigger than tht thingy and I can kill it macam itu....or cook it...(syu suggested it!)...Jarren said it tastes nice...like biscuits(or did he say chicken?) well I'm obviously not gonna cook "belalang goreng"...not as sick as syu >< (jk!)...alotta mixed emotions lah now...scared,upset,stressed,what else??hmm....I'm so gonna go to school tomorrow....dont wanna stay at home alone to face that thingy...

Hmmm....just got back from school...such a warm day...many ppl in school fell sick...this mornin our principle told us that the total amount that we've collected from the food fair is RM100k + .....cool lah.its like 20k more than our target...anyways aft tht we went back to class and I dunno what happened coz I feel asleep...thts coz the teacher's not teaching us and its PJ btw....aft tht we had this teknik menjawab for spm mathematics in the hall frm 9-10.30am..I dont think I got anythin tht the penceramah said coz I was like..too sleepy....but I didnt sleep.Just keep yawning..aft tht we had recess...and we got back to class for maths lesson.Puan Zaharah didnt come in for BM so we just hang around talking or some were sleeping.During the free BM period,a few of my classmates quarreled.I dont knw why they did but I think its kinda complicated.Dont really bother to ask although I actually wanna knw why.soon after that we had our Moral with 5science2 girls in their little air-conditioned classroom.I was talkin to Ngee May and Mathilda when friends from the back screamed and one of them ran to the front of the class.Girls sitting at the back told us tht there's a rat and I think its trynna come outta the lil hole on the wall.Our Moral teacher managed to control us and we all became a lil more quiet.After that,the screaming began all over again and all the girls lift up their legs.Gaya and Mathilda actually climbed onto the chair and a few other classmates who were sitting on the floor ran to the nearest chair or table and climbed onto it!LOL! it was a hilarious sight.well that is the only funny thing tht happened today...aft Moral we went back to class and everyone looked so gloomy,sick,emo,stressed,and many other types of expressions and emotions. sighh...thats all I wanna say about today....

I went into the room at 1.48am this morning,thinking that I could sleep better after reading history.Dont know why...this cold,rainy night seemed so warm in the air-conditioned room...I closed my eyes....but I wasnt asleep...after a few minutes I open my eyes again...I looked at the time...2.02am...damn!why is the time creeping so slowly??I was sleepy..but I couldn't sleep...so I stared at the ceiling...many things ran through my mind...a summary of my life...after what seems like forever,I looked at the time again..what the hell??4.33am?!?!wow whats interesting about the ceiling?? So I thought...I really need to get some sleep...and I did...


* I was walking along the roadside of Mount Erskine.It seems like a dream and yet it seems so real.There were no cars.Only people.Or are they?I stood in front of the entrance to the cemeteries and looked around...Everyone was walking about slowly..as if the world belongs to them. Someone across the road caught my attention.That familiar figure,that familiar face! The face that I've been missing since 10years ago.I cried and I called out to her as I run across the road."Mama!" I hugged her tightly...at that time I wished that I will never have to let go,but I had to...she looked at me with tears in her eyes..and she said to me in traditional hokkien. "Mei,just be patient for now.Everything will be over soon." Mama's voice seemed so distant.She then waved at me,the same expression as the one she had 10 years ago...and after she did that,she never came back.I dont want to lose her for another time! I cling onto her.But I only wake up to find myself hugging my bolster,and my pillow wet with tears.*


I went to have my morning bath and I burst out really badly in the showers.Mama passed away when I was seven,but I can remember her face,her voice,her warmth....how fast time flies in a blink of an eye and how much I've been missing her...sometimes I wished that her death is just a dream,and I wanna wake up...so that I can run to her for comfort..But I cant..because what happened is the truth...I can never run to her and say how much I love her anymore.....