Hello people....how's everyone?I hope everyone's okay lah..Here is a short poem that I've written earlier on...



It's been raining
and the wind is ferociously blowing,
The leaves were wet,they seem to be crying,
How glad to know that nature understands my feelings.
Then I look up at the dark,gloomy sky.
I looked and I looked and I wonder why,
Where is the sky that was once blue?
Are they feeling sad,just like I do??
Somewhere in the distance,
Someone is happily laughing in spite of the rain,
I stood there longer,
hoping that the rain will wash away my pain.

obviously the rain didnt....but it kinda makes me feel better...Anyways I wanna write about this cute lil boy whom I discovered last friday.His name is Liu Han Wei..or smth lidat lah..I remember its Liu Han something... I went to the "ge tai" place which is a performing place in accordance to the chinese 7th lunar month...first night was boring lah..just two chicks singing nia..He came for the second night.Ｉwas somewhere running around with kids when his voice caught my heart. So I went over and took videos of him singing. The first song he sang was "Ni Shi Wo De Yan"(you are my eyes)




His voice and the song put tears in my eyes.


second song is a hokkien song but I dont knw wat song it is and im not interested anyway so lets move on to the third song, "Ai Ni De Zhi You Yi Ge Wo"(I'm The Only One Who Loves You)



Fourth song is JJ Lin's song I think...Idk the title. But I saw this uncle shaking his butt and I took that too!watch this!



After this he sang "Beat It" by Michael Jackson and I almost became his dancer when I think of those times The Phantom perform on stage...but I didnt lah...he's paid to sing..later I spoil his lil "concert" nia...




I dont knw what you think but I think that this kid is cool!looks like a lil chinese version of MJ.He sang another mandarin song after that but I didnt take vids anymore.Aunt said they pay RM100 for him to sing two songs which is RM50 per song and the money goes to dunno what fund.Imagine how much money he will get if he sings more.Hmmm...that's all lah...sighh...have to go to the hospital tomorrow...then counselling,counselling and MORE counselling! ugh!dont like lah coz those counsellors like so kay poh lidat...but have to lah...my depression will slowly eat me up if I dont....honestly....I feel so sad now....who knows?only me...well I guess now y'all oso knw d lah...Take care ppl...

I didnt go to school oso today...my two good friends "fever" and "sore throat" keeps coming and going as they like...all I wanna do today is to sleep...but aunt 'korek' me up to study...then ma nth lo...aunt asked me to hang the laundry...all almost done liao u knw!the last 3 pieces of aunt's stuff...i saw this freaking grasshopper with tht huge scary eyes staring back at me!!!damn! i ran and screamed like nobody's business and almost cried..but didnt...no one is at home and this really terrifies me...so went back to close the kitchen door....but when i turn again tht thingy is gone! scares me lahh...dont knw whether its in or outta the house now.... ugh!worse thing is i can hear something flying around the house............the 3items are still out there un-hanged....I'd rather be scolded tmr than to be thr...wondering whether its still thr and dunno whr it is...I feel so useless...im like....dunno how many times bigger than tht thingy and I can kill it macam itu....or cook it...(syu suggested it!)...Jarren said it tastes nice...like biscuits(or did he say chicken?) well I'm obviously not gonna cook "belalang goreng"...not as sick as syu >< (jk!)...alotta mixed emotions lah now...scared,upset,stressed,what else??hmm....I'm so gonna go to school tomorrow....dont wanna stay at home alone to face that thingy...

Hmmm....just got back from school...such a warm day...many ppl in school fell sick...this mornin our principle told us that the total amount that we've collected from the food fair is RM100k + .....cool lah.its like 20k more than our target...anyways aft tht we went back to class and I dunno what happened coz I feel asleep...thts coz the teacher's not teaching us and its PJ btw....aft tht we had this teknik menjawab for spm mathematics in the hall frm 9-10.30am..I dont think I got anythin tht the penceramah said coz I was like..too sleepy....but I didnt sleep.Just keep yawning..aft tht we had recess...and we got back to class for maths lesson.Puan Zaharah didnt come in for BM so we just hang around talking or some were sleeping.During the free BM period,a few of my classmates quarreled.I dont knw why they did but I think its kinda complicated.Dont really bother to ask although I actually wanna knw why.soon after that we had our Moral with 5science2 girls in their little air-conditioned classroom.I was talkin to Ngee May and Mathilda when friends from the back screamed and one of them ran to the front of the class.Girls sitting at the back told us tht there's a rat and I think its trynna come outta the lil hole on the wall.Our Moral teacher managed to control us and we all became a lil more quiet.After that,the screaming began all over again and all the girls lift up their legs.Gaya and Mathilda actually climbed onto the chair and a few other classmates who were sitting on the floor ran to the nearest chair or table and climbed onto it!LOL! it was a hilarious sight.well that is the only funny thing tht happened today...aft Moral we went back to class and everyone looked so gloomy,sick,emo,stressed,and many other types of expressions and emotions. sighh...thats all I wanna say about today....

I went into the room at 1.48am this morning,thinking that I could sleep better after reading history.Dont know why...this cold,rainy night seemed so warm in the air-conditioned room...I closed my eyes....but I wasnt asleep...after a few minutes I open my eyes again...I looked at the time...2.02am...damn!why is the time creeping so slowly??I was sleepy..but I couldn't sleep...so I stared at the ceiling...many things ran through my mind...a summary of my life...after what seems like forever,I looked at the time again..what the hell??4.33am?!?!wow whats interesting about the ceiling?? So I thought...I really need to get some sleep...and I did...


* I was walking along the roadside of Mount Erskine.It seems like a dream and yet it seems so real.There were no cars.Only people.Or are they?I stood in front of the entrance to the cemeteries and looked around...Everyone was walking about slowly..as if the world belongs to them. Someone across the road caught my attention.That familiar figure,that familiar face! The face that I've been missing since 10years ago.I cried and I called out to her as I run across the road."Mama!" I hugged her tightly...at that time I wished that I will never have to let go,but I had to...she looked at me with tears in her eyes..and she said to me in traditional hokkien. "Mei,just be patient for now.Everything will be over soon." Mama's voice seemed so distant.She then waved at me,the same expression as the one she had 10 years ago...and after she did that,she never came back.I dont want to lose her for another time! I cling onto her.But I only wake up to find myself hugging my bolster,and my pillow wet with tears.*


I went to have my morning bath and I burst out really badly in the showers.Mama passed away when I was seven,but I can remember her face,her voice,her warmth....how fast time flies in a blink of an eye and how much I've been missing her...sometimes I wished that her death is just a dream,and I wanna wake up...so that I can run to her for comfort..But I cant..because what happened is the truth...I can never run to her and say how much I love her anymore.....

Happy Birthday Mandy!

Good morning!As you know I'm not in school today cause many mates are sick and my cousin asked me not to go to school.well staying at home is not much better either.I'm rotting....cant get those histories and what perdagangan into my head...and the 36 nilai moral which Im supposed to memorize a month ago...trials are in less than a month's time and I am so not ready....I'm supposed to go out with Snowy after school today but since I didnt go to school,our plan is cancelled.Not to forget my last girls' brigade meeting! I told Mathilda that I'm gonna go and support her! ugh! Thank God that today is a rainy day.it makes my mood better. =) now I have to go back to my studies again.Have a great day people~! owh ya! Today is another of my dear friend's birthday! Happy birthday Mandy~~~!!!

Hello!wats up ppl?=) I wrote another poem in class today.It was like,so boring cause 26/36 students went to some dunno what kursus or program and since TiNee and Darylene is on their respective vacations and a few other classmates down with fever,coughs and etc,there were only 6 of us in the class.So not-used to the unusual peace and silence.In the midst of falling asleep,ideas came into my head and I started writing.By the way,the title was suggested by Puan Zaharah.

Journey Of Life


I wanna write,
write about the journey and aspects of life.

I wanna write,
write about the lost path
no one's there to guide.

I wanna write,
write about faked smiles
and the sadness theyre trynna hide,
some people say that theyre happy,
and sometimes they lied.

Life isn't about doing what you like,
most of ours are like roller coaster rides,
through the ups and through the downs
who is there to be by your side?

I wanna write about this bias world,
because when money rules,
the wrong becomes the right,
it ended up in quarrels and fights.

In life,
we have what-you-call a family,
some of them are really supportive,
while the others put you in miseries,
it leaves us with many untold sad stories.

Slowly in life we discover love,
it comes knocking when its the right time,
through all the problems,true love will rise above,
loving a person with all your heart is not a crime.

Then comes our friends,
the not-so-good leaves,
the good will stay,
they stand by you until the end,
and supports you in every way.

That's about all,
cause Im running outta idea,
So I guess my poem
will end right here.


Okay....I hope y'all have a great day! =)

The Phantom

Here are the pics of our Phantom shirt designed by TiNee....

This is the front of the shirt with MJ's pic and the word "thriller" on it.

this is the back of the shirt with another of MJ's pic and below it is our group name "The Phantom"

on our right sleeves we have "CPT" which are our school's initials (Convent Pulau Tikus)

and here are a few vids that was taken durin our dance practise and all.....

CPTees Food and Fun Fest 2009

Today is a wonderful day....everyone liked our dance and some people actually thinks that our dance is the best of all and the RM5 is worth paying...I panicked when my jacket zip got stuck and cant be taken out...but I got it out on the 3rd attempt and I quickly take it out and threw it aside....I was really nervous and I do not dare to look at the audience at first....but then I thought...today is our last performance after hours,days,and weeks of practice and I wanna give my best shot! I glanced over at them and I saw my friends...friends who cheers,supports and who will always be there for me even if I make tonnes of mistakes...I smiled at them and I danced confidently....after the dance many people cheered for us...getting positive comments and knowing that they liked our dance and supports us,it makes all the time that we've invested and all our effort worthwhile....I kinda screwed the first performance which is at 11...so I vowed that the 2nd performance will be better...it was better!I knew that my aunt,my niece and my nephews were there at the food fair...but I wasnt sure whether they're gonna watch my 2nd performance.... at first aunt said that shes not gonna watch us cause its rm5 per head and its a waste of money....but when I looked at the audience durin the 2nd performance,I knw...I knw that theres not only friends who supports me..but my family as well...seeing them there makes me wanna perform much much better than I've ever done...and I did!anyways,I wanna thank my aunt,my niece and nephews, Jarren,Saran & gang,Kok Wah & gang,and many other friends who came for spending some time and some rm5 coupons(=P!)for us inpite of the rain...last but not least,wanna thank all "the phantom" friends for putting their time and energy and also for the best performance that they have given....


"yesterday we practice,today we perform,tomorrow we'll be remembered" (LOL!!!!!)


The Phantom

~Gaya
~Pavi
~Let
~Leha
~wany
~TiNee
~Mels
~Muna
~Diyanah
~Su
~Mia
~Kal
~Fatt
~Siew Wern

ok Im done....The Phantom Rocks!!! <3333