So, I lived through yesterday.

Been really down lately.

Anyways Zed and Ying taught me how to trigger the ages of my Sims on Thursday and I successfully killed the two main characters.

Fai si they keep reproducing and making loads of unnecessary noise.

And while at work yesterday I finally erupted.

One 12-year old student called me stupid as always.

Usually I smile and continue marking papers.

But I got mad yesterday.

However stupid I was, I am still five levels higher than she is!

With that attitude of hers, she's never gonna get smarter because she's always copying answers.

You know why I let her?

Because I no longer wanna waste energy on a worthless piece of shit!

  I then refused to talk to anyone because everyone is getting on my nerves!

Conrad kept talking to me but I ignored him totally.

Until...

He shouted at uncle.

Uncle jokingly said he should eat less because uncle's bike can no longer support his weight.

He raised his voice and asked uncle to shut up.

That was when I totally lose my temper.

I shouted at him,reminding him that no one is his slave.

He left for tuition and I remained silent while marking few last papers before I go home.

Adrienne said I looked hot when I'm angry.

Today, I went to work,hoping I'd get a chance to talk to Conrad properly..

My anger has not disappeared, but I did talk to him properly.

During lunch uncle told him that he had forgotten to buy his lunch.

He stared at uncle and was about to shout again when I yelled at him.

People all over the room turned and looked at me.

I did not care.

I told Conrad that I feel like killing him each time he does that.

=X

Later on I told Conrad that even though uncle is working for his mum like all of us,

uncle aint his slave.

I asked him to imagine if he was old,not well,and being yelled at by a young boy almost everyday.

How'd he feel?

He listened to me calmly.

I hope it really got into his head.

Maybe its just me,

but I hurt each time they bully uncle.

I imagine someone like my dad being treated this way.

='(

I saw Sebastian and another baby boy Vin and I got over my emo-ness.

Got a video of Sebastian but did not manage to get Vin because each time he passes my table I run to him.

Vin is a very obedient lil boy because he comes to me whenever I call him.

<3

And now...

Introducing Adrienne's lil Sebastian!

*I got him today coz Adrienne let me =P*

Cute right!

=D

The next thing imma do is to get a video of tiny Vinnesh!(he's chinese btw)

He's as light as a feather and when he held my hand I could feel his tiny lil cute fingers!

<333333333

Conrad said that I've been making every lil baby my "khay kia"(I mean anak angkat not anak ayam)

since I came to the tuition centre.

Lol

Vained a lil with Miss Lee.

I went Prangin with my aunt after work and nothing much happened except the part where I "electrocuted" someone's bf with my smile by accident.  

=P

So I guess tomorrow will be a better day.

Sleep well guys!

Loves.

=)

Hello awesome people!

How are things goin?

=D

some of you might think that its weird because I'm still smiling..

yesterday I went to the doctors again,both endocrine and nephro.

Dr. Khaw from Endocrine is really funny.

He can tell you bad news while smiling.

Made me smile too.

Lol

I know that this can get better because I've gone through worst in this department.

So it was pretty easy because it was not that serious too.

Went to Nephro after that.

The last time I'd seen Dr Kok she was pregnant.

And she's pregnant again.

She asked me about my job and all.

She said she could pay me more if I became her kid's nanny.

LOL

She said the SHORTEST time that I will last is until I am 25.

*Please note the capital letters*

Haha.

So I might live longer than that.

And if I don't, I have about another six years to live a life that has no regrets!

=D

Thank goodness dad was outside.

Imagine his face if he heard that.

So today I went to Gurney with ah Hong.

Met him at the seventh floor and decided to watch 

Great Day

My ticket.

I was gonna cry at some parts but stopped myself when I see Hong's face.

embarrassed

Lol.

Was super sleepy too because my mind has been working all night.

And we went to KimGary for lunch after movie.

Hong @ KimGary

Ah Hong then walked me to my workplace located in Jones Road.

Saved cab fare.

Lol.

It could be counted as a happy outing.

But it will not take away the pain in my heart.

My favourite student Alden came and as usual Adrienne and I laughed at his cuteness.

Yesterday Adrienne asked him whether he'll be coming tomorrow aka today and he nodded his head.

Then he looked at her and asked "tomorrow is what?"

So cute!

<3

 students who came today was super good.

Conrad said he's gonna miss me when I leave because there will no longer be a Miss Tan for him and Joshua to bully.

Haha.

Took pictures of Adrienne's lil Sebastian.

Sebastian

He's so cute!

*I think I say that about all lil kids*

Lol.

Well..

Life has to go on..

I didn't bother to keep May updated because as my so-called best friend,

she no longer seem to care about my existence.

For some reason I'm feeling very numb right now.

I guess that's all for today.

Rest well.

Loves.

* Falling for someone  the first time is easy...it's the second time, after you have fallen and trusted someone to catch you and they didn't...when it becomes difficult to fall again.*

I went out with Charmaine,Zed and Ying today.

Planned to meet everyone at Tanjung Bunga Market at 12pm.

I was there at 7am because aunt went to work.

So I waited at another aunt's house.

*Bla bla bla*

Met Charmaine at 12pm.

Waited for Zed and Ying for a while.

Then got on bus 104 just opposite us at the main bus terminal.

I LOVE 104!

because it passes Boon Siew and TAR College.

=DDD

Took some pics.

Charmaine's SHO-ing face.

=P

So we went to buy tickets as soon as we got to Prangin.

Bought tickets to "My Ex Haunted Lover" and went to lunch at the food court.

We got Hall 7 and when we were about to go in we all stood at the door and stared at each other.

I keep trying to look at Charmaine because she's the sensitive type.

We thought there were people in the cinema but at last when we sat down Zed said that there weren't anyone.

We all freaked out but I was trynna remain as calm as I can.

Until Zed and Ying ran outta the cinema while Charmaine screamed.

I was the last to get out.

I was still running pass those seats when I saw Charmaine disappear into the stairs.

My heart almost stopped when I see them all at the door because I thought they could not open the door.

But at last we made it out.

We were hanging around at the hallway discussing about what happened.

Charmaine said she was grabbed at the waist at the exit and asked whether I did it because I was behind her.

How could I when my right hand was holding my bag and left hand was occupied by my phone?

Zed suggested that we went back to watch but I said we better not because if there was anything we have already been disrespectful by running and screaming.

So we went back to the counter and the girl was willing to give us another movie but we decided to move on to Gurney because at least it is not that scary.

Our tickets.

So we took bus number 10 to Gurney.

Charmaine texted her mum while we were in the bus about what happened and her mother's reply was,

"Aiya..lagi teruk..quickly call Jesus,Goddess of Mercy,Tua Pek Kong and anyone up there that you can think of.or Lei Tor Fatt..

Amen.*

We burst out LOL-ing!

Her mum can be very funny at times of anxiety.

LOL

The bus stopped at Gurney's roundabout and I went to ask that man whether the bus is going to go to Gurney Plaza.

They said we gotta walk there.

They thought we were tourists.

=.=

This was random but we have never taken a pic at the fountain although Gurney is our second home.

Pic taken by me!

Then the Rapid uncle came to offer us his help to take a pic for the four of us.

Ended up,he thought he took a pic but he didnt.

=.=

Then we ma went into Gurney Plaza lor.

Bought tickets to 

"Homecoming"

Then we walked around.

Went fourth floor.

Saw those machines played by children.

*LMAO dunno what you call it =P*

So Zed and I got on it.

Imagine two big asses squeezed into ONE small seat.

My ass suffocated yo!

Took videos but its in the process of editing.

Will upload it soon kay.

Never knew Charmaine could look this hot in a carriage.

=P

I was in the lil helicopter when I took this pic.

=D

We went for the movie soon after.

It was a good movie!

We LOL-ed like orang gila.

Jack Neo looked FANTABULOUS as an auntie!

Hahahahaha

=DDD

We somehow forgotten about our eerie encounter earlier.

We all took a bus but went separate ways soon after with Charmaine,Ying and I getting down first before Zed.

So I came home.

Saw the moon.

It was beautiful.

I got addicted to looking at it until I cried.

So I stopped looking and came to blog.

Was blogging halfway when Hong texted me.

Asked me to look at the moon.

I know right?

=(

Cannot stop finding fault with VJ because of what he said earlier.

I get very geram when he doubts me.

Ishk!

Anyhow,thanks to Charmaine,Ying and Zed for bringing laughters into my life today.

and also to Ah Hong for the comfort.

Not to forget,to VJ for making me mad.

=.=

Sleep well guys!

Remember to come back for the video okay?

Loves.

Hello peeps!

Thanks for visiting my blog!

=D

I did not go to work yesterday because I went to the hospital for blood test.

Besides my pathetic kidneys,doctor said that I'm temporarily anemic too.
And yet they took five bottles of blood coz two tests combined together.

But its not gonna stop me from anything!

=)

Nothing much happened yesterday.

Maybe I was just a lil emo.

I made Hong emo too.

*Sorry!*

Today was more interesting.

 Neil suggested that I apply for a job at Chicago Rib House in Gurney because the pay is higher.

But aunt has already found me a job as a temporary assistant at TAR College.

I'm torn.

Aunt keeps discouraging me by saying that I do not need to study anymore and to work is all that I need.

Wished I could tell her straight at her face that we are no longer living in her century where girls stay useless at home while boys go out and earn money.

The reason that I'm working is because I WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE!

Not like I asked for her money.

I get very pissed whenever she ask me to not think about college.

I was gonna go to work by bus when I saw my cousin brother Rocky so I hopped into his car since he was gonna go somewhere.

I was alone when I got there but Adrienne came minutes later to open the door.

*For your info I  was waiting outside because I do not have keys*

So we chatted for a bit and corrected and marked whatever that has to be done.

My student came at 4smth.

They were funny.

And I actually scolded those two annoying students.

Time passed very fast and it was 7.30pm when I had only one student left.

Even so she has finished her worksheet long ago and was just waiting for her brother.

I was busy marking when I heard Adrienne say "Alden".

My lil cutie was there already!

I quickly pushed those other papers aside and asked Alden to sit with me.

He did.

=DDDD

Since there were not many people left I took a video of him during lesson.

XD

Was teaching Alden the difference between WINK and BLINK.

=D

I love kids!

LOL random.

How to spell bird?

He's adorable aint he?

He asked me whether my W910i is a blackberry.

Its not fake btw.

LOL

No matter how bad my day was I'll always smile when I see him around.

There's another cute boy named Sebastian.

But Adrienne claimed him hers already.

=(

LOL its okay we can share share.

=X

Gotta thank VJ for being there always.

I hope you guys had a great day too!

Rest well!

Loves.

*Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted.*

I logged into Facebook the moment I got up this morning to see whether there's any news of Kevin.

I sighed in relief because he replied my comments and he said that he will not do anything stupid.

I feel like strangling him for all the tears that he has caused me to shed.

But thank God he's okay.

So I went to church with Angie.

I went up to POD and saw Tomo and Richie playing Uno with three other girls who knows me.

I didn't know who they were.

And I still don't.

They even know where and which unit I live in.

=.=

Saw Grace soon after that because I forced her to go to church last night.

During service Arthur texted me and told me that he will be coming to his friend's house which is in B Block and asked me whether I wanna meet him up.

So I said okay because I was not gonna go to cell group anyway.

Grace saw his text which says "I will go to your house at 3smth" and she gave me the "=O" look.

I started explaining non-stop because the truth is he's not even gonna see which unit my house is.

Just gonna see him at the pool.

She was obviously thinking nonsense.

So after service we went to the usual place for lunch and Willy sent YS,Grace and I back home.

Arthur called me five minutes after I got home.

I went to the letter box then to the pool.

We talked for about ten minutes and I asked him to go home because I was tired and wanted to sleep.

So he went home.

Kevin's uncle called me after dinner and told me that he has given Kevin back his phone.

I got a call from Kevin and scolded him like crap because he made me cry.

Lol

I've been online since after dinner as usual.

Saw RayRay listening to Long Distance by Bruno Mars and I downloaded it too.

It feels like what I'm feeling.

I'm gonna go to bed early because VJ is too busy to reply me and I have to go to the hospital for blood test early tomorrow morning.

I guess that's all for today?

=D

Sleep well guys!

Loves.

Here are the lyrics to 

Long Distance

by

Bruno Mars

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time 
And I'm running outta things to do to get you off my mind (oh) 
All I have is this picture in a frame 
That I hold close to see your face everyday 

Chorus: 
With you is where id rather be 
But we're stuck where we are and its so hard, so far 
This long distance is killin me 
I wish that you were here with me 
But we're stuck where we are and its so hard, so far 
This long distance is killin me 
It's so hard (so hard) 
When we are (when we are) 
We're so far, this long distance is killin me 
It's so hard (so hard) 
When we are (when we are) 
So far, this long distance is killin me 

Verse: 
Now the minutes feel like hours and the hours feel like days 
While I'm away 
You know right now I can't be home 
But I'm comin home soon, coming home soon 
All I have is this picture in a frame 
That I hold close to see your face again 

Chorus: 

With you is where I'd rather be 
But we're stuck where we are and it's so hard, so far 
This long distance is killin me 
I wish that you were here with me 
But we're stuck where we are and its so hard, so far 

Breakdown: 
Can you hear me cryin? (Oooooh) 
Can you hear me cryin? (Oooooh) 
Can you hear me cryin? (Oooooh) 

Chorus: 
With you is where I'd rather be 
But we're stuck where we are and it's so hard, so far 
This long distance is killin me 
I wish that you were here with me 
But we're stuck where we are and its so hard, so far 
It's so hard (so hard) 
When we are (when we are) 
We're so far, this long distance is killin me 
It's so hard (so hard) 
When we are (when we are) 
So far, this long distance is killin me 

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time.

True aint it?

*I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you.*

I had an awful day today.

Adrienne did not go to work because she was away for some dunno what course

and I was left alone at English section.

Work and students kept piling up plus both sons of the boss kept quarreling makes me want to scream their heads off.

I was glad when 5pm came because at least I can come home.

Even so, I did not manage to finish marking all those papers.

Adrienne is gonna scream my head off.

She got mad at me yesterday because I said I'm looking for another job with higher pay.

What choices do I have?

Four bucks an hour aint gonna get me anywhere.

Whats more going to college in KL.

Did not go to church after work because we were supposed to have family dinner but at last it was cancelled.

So I got on Facebook after I bathe and all.

Got a shock because my friend Kevin tagged me in a note.

It sounds so suicidish.

I thought those were just words of anger.

So I did not comment or anything,

Then I went off to have dinner.

Aunt came back moments later and she mentioned about him.

My heart stopped.

My mind went nuts.

I told aunt to not break any news to me yet.

I took a few minutes to calm down,remembering what he tagged me in.

Then aunt told me that he has been missing since last night.

His uncle called my nephew to ask.

I panicked.

I came online to see his profile.

His last status asked us which are his friends to take care.

I burst out crying.

I'm so numb now and my brain is frozen.

If any of you happen to see him,please ask him to come back because no matter what happened,they are still his family and we are still his beloved friends.

Kevin and Alvin.

For those of you who do not know him,

I would like you to know that he is a very good friend and is always willing to help people out.

He is someone no one can afford to lose.

Someone who smiles at you all the time and cheers you up when you're down.

He has never given up on anything.

I hope that he will not give up on life.

Today was my off day and so is tomorrow.

I was having conference call with Zed,Venita,Sarah and VJ when I got a reply from S2 last night aka this morning.

*terharu*

I'm a lil too excited.

Lol

o.O

I went out with Arthur,Melvin and Jason earlier.

Awkward!

I was like,trynna keep a distance.

Its just weird that your friend which you have always treated as a friend suddenly turned into your lover.

Hang on...

"Lover" not forgetting the inverted commas.

You guys gotta know that we just faked it.

This relationship thing happened because we have our own reasons.

And I "broke up" with Arthur when we were in the bus reaching our homes.

Haha

We were planning on what to tell people when they ask and Arthur said he was gonna tell them that I'm a cheater and a f****r because Grace always says that about her exes.

WTH?

Lol

So I came home feeling good like I always do.

And then I saw VJ's profile.

*emo*

 copycat!

=P

After that went to cook dinner and stuff.

I was washing dishes after dinner while many things were running through my head and before I know it,

I was rubbing my right thumb on the sharp side of the knife.

It was a lil painful but I hardly feel it because I was in a deeper emotional pain.

Aunt found me staring at my thumb not knowing what to do and she asked me to put plaster.

I did,forgetting to take a picture.

I came online after dinner to keep myself updated.

I saw Arthur's updates and I went to see his profile.

He really said that I'm a cheater and a f****r to Edwin!

=O

Haha but we all know its NOT true!

Because if it is,I can say that about him too.

=X

So I made him explain in Facebook.

I was arguing with VJ in MSN when S2 came online.

So I wished him again.

I was calm until he congratulated me on my "relationship" with Arthur!

=.=

THIS IS NOT TRUE!

I am serious that Arthur and I were not serious!

Pictures would be all over Facebook and whatever that has something gotta do with me if it was real.

And I did not take a single pic at the outing.

Come on la...

Usually I would wanna show the person that I love off to the world because he's someone that I'm proud of.

Arthur is a good guy and I'm a good girl(=PPPPPP) but he's not my type of fruit and I'm not his type of music.

At least we "ended" peacefully.

*Actually did not start also*

So PLEASE!

Don't luan luan lai.

Haha

It NEVER happened.

ohh and btw,

I removed the plaster and took a picture.

Shoulda taken it when the cut was bigger.

=X

VJ caused this!

=X

Joking hahha.

So I guess I'm gonna go off.

Can someone please sing me to sleep?

Lol

Goodnight people.

Loves.

*The fact is NOT the truth*

Work was fun today!

The older students got more comfortable with me already.

It was overall a peaceful day at work because no one make me angry.

Lol

My heart goes out to the uncle who's working there.

He's 50+ already and he's still working although he is not well.

I got to work an hour too early on Monday and uncle was the only one there so we talked.

He said that he's like carrying a time bomb because of his sickness.

=(

So I was teaching my level G student when suddenly the teacher from chinese section said that his student puked.

We all looked and that boy was running to the toilet.

They were shouting at his sister who is my level G student to go have a look at him but she was like,

"he's NOT my brother!"

Adrienne and I burst into laughters.

I was observing everyone around.Everyone became restless and there was a revolting smell.

I saw uncle coming with newspapers to clear up the mess.

He was a lil crippled when he walks.

I got angry.

No one else seems to want to help him.

And he as an elder has to clean up the young people's mess.

What the hell?!

So I offered him some help.

But there's another indian cleaning lady there so at last I went back to my table to do my work.

Soon there were only a few students left at out section.

I took a six-year old boy named Alden because my other students went to do math already.

Alden is a very cute boy!

I taught him a few days back.

I envy Adrienne.

She always gets those cute lil ones and I only get big kids.

=X

I love kids more now!

I don't feel stress at all even when they make mistakes.

<3

I was cleaning the table after Alden finished his work and he asked in his lil innocent voice.

"Teacher are you a children?why you become teacher one?"

I laughed.

I told him because I know all my ABCs and spelling.

Then I asked him to recite his ABC while he watch me wipe the tables.

Adrienne and I laughed again when he said it wrongly.

We were not being mean.

Just thought that he's super cute!

I came back after that because I only work till 8pm.

Below are some random pictures we took at work.

=P

Adrienne's first pay cheque!

=D

Posing with the pen

XD

The view of the place from my table.

Math section.

Adrienne's side of English section from my view.

My side of English section from Adrienne's view.

Miss Lee at her desk

=D

Alrights that's all for today.

Sleep well yo!

Loves.

So...I got into a relationship with Arthur yesterday.

Is this real?

Please don't ask me because I do not have an answer.

And I don't feel like explaining because those who wanted me to explain didn't matter(as much) and I doubt that

the one who mattered would ask for an explanation.

S2..I stay true..

Maybe this has happened because I was afraid..

I don't wanna see history repeats itself

 every time it does,

I couldn't get out.

Someday you guys might understand why...

And I know life aint a like a drama because in reality,

a person changed because he/she has changed(mostly),

not because of anything else.

In my case,I have a reason.

And I will keep my promises.

Have an awesome day guys!

Loves.

*Sometimes what you see might not be the truth*

Hello Peeps!

=DD

I went for my new job today!

I'm currently working in Kumon located at Jones Road every Monday,Tuesday.Friday and Saturday.

The other three days I will be working at Helena Cafe in Ferringghi.

So today I went to Kumon for the first time.

Adrienne was the one who brought me there.

The first thing they had me to do was to take an exam.

I took Level-H and got 95marks!

Well Level H is not that high yet.

Highest is Level L.

So I have four papers more to get to the highest.

Levels range from A to L.

I'm just a few steps away!

Lol

So I got taken in as an English tutor just like Adrienne.

But she teaches the younger kids and I got twelve year olds.

One of my students keep asking questions that has nothing gotta do with English.

For example,"teacher why you so small?"

"teacher you got licence ah?"

"teacher how you go back?"

"teacher you have boyfriend?"

"teacher what time are you coming tomorrow?"

I find them cute at times but I really don't like to answer loads of unnecessary questions when I mark their papers.

The tall girl challenged my patience.

She snatched my paper when I was marking.

I marked another paper and she told her friend that I cannot get angry mia.

She doesn't know when my volcano erupts.

Adrienne kept teasing me because I explain to the students until they understand what I'm trynna say.

I actually force them to listen to me.

=X

I hope that tomorrow will be as beautiful!

I'm almost too lazy to say anything anymore.

Sleep well!

Loves.

Ray's So-called Farewell

So we had an outing from 12pm-7pm today.

Well,not exactly.

I was waiting for Zed to text me when Charmaine texted us.

So I decided to not wait for Zed anymore and get to Gurney as soon as possible to not let Charmaine linger alone.

While running down I called Rapid Penang to ask what time will the bus be coming.

They told me that two buses has just gone and another was at Masjid Terapung which is VERY near to my place.

I ran like I never did before but I see the bus passing right before my eyes at the traffic lights.

=(

I have to be in Gurney by 1pm and according to the operator the next bus will come at 1pm or later.

I was turning back to the 103 bus stop when I saw a very old cab and a very old cabbie.

I've got no choice.

I got into it and told the uncle that I need to reach Gurney as soon as I can.

He said that he will try his best.

While passing the Maybank traffic lights I saw a 103!

*that bus stops directly in front of Gurney and the last stop is halfway up to my house*

I almost burst out cursing!

Lol but I didn't really.

The uncle drove like a turtle.

I felt so suffocated.

I asked him whether he could go faster and he said being late is nothing as long as we reach destination safely.

WTH?

Temperature was seriously rising.

His cab no aircond and he was getting on my nerves.

When we stopped at Gurney Drive traffic lights I paid him quickly because I was gonna fly off as soon as he stops.

When he got there I said thank you and he said,"okay baby".

=.=

Apek fat hao.

Flew to MPH and found Charmaine there.

She looked hot in her new hairstyle.

We went to get a drink.

On the way to meet the others at McD we got caught by those Sony people to play a game.

Conclusion:we didn't win.

The others were in Secret Recipe so we went to show our faces.

Lol

Me (in Ray's shades) & Zed

Ven and Shan

Decided to go to Redbox so both of us went to book a room.

After that Charmaine and I went to Sakae Sushi.

"Lu ai jiak hami?"

hahaha

"dan che,vain seng"

Lol

Her soft,shiny new hairstyle.

<3

Asked Charmaine whether I should smile with or without showing my teeth.

Lol

*pouts*

Adding wasabi!

Charmaine seem to be a HUGE fan of Salmon.

Lol!

Amount of sushi we had.

Lmao

Went redbox after that.

This was the first time all of them went to RedBox.

I think our screaming turned RedBox upside down.

Charmaine and her pussy-pose.
Haha
We all sang so gila-gila but I started to be emo when I was singing Drowning.
Then broke down when I was singing "When you're gone"
Ray saw tears on my face and she ran over and hugged me!
Then Charmaine,Zed and Ying came.
So touched.
<3
Here's a video.
Please don't listen in full volume because there's no insurance included in my blog.
=P

I aint pacifying myself but we don't usually sing this bad kay!
Or maybe,running outta tune is just my profession.
Lol!
Charmaine and I left early because we wanna go job-hunt.
Went Wongkok
dragged each other around.
Met up with Ray and gang when they came out.
Charmaine and I went to take bus.
I got down at church.
Prayer meeting.
Met friends that I've missed.
Finally, I feel like I'm home.
A place where I belong.
And came home after that.
You guys have fun kay?
Loves.
*I am so glad to see you online*