I went to church today.

The Hip-Hop party was a success!

Everyone had fun!!Those of you that I've invited but didn't show up,you missed the fun!

I guess I'll let this short video that I've taken describe you the atmosphere.

We had cool dancers like Kenn,Richie,Matthias,Gary, and a few sexy dancers like Rubes,Bubu,Joanne,Carmen and so forth.

Service was great too!

Never been in a church this awesome as City Harvest Church Penang!

Dinner at the food court as usual.

I was happily talking to Christian,Gary and Stephanie when suddenly work(and some nonsense) came into my mind.

We have to work everyday for the WHOLE MONTH OF MARCH because TAR College will be having open day from 4th-6th of March and 11th-27th of March.

All birthday plans cancelled.

SuiLin and I already planned our outing!

Her birthday is two days before mine.

=(

But I guess its just another day.

I haven't really gotten over what happened three days before my birthday last year.

Only those involved will know yea?

I kinda had the so-called best birthday of my life last year.

I got an acer notebook, had great friends to celebrate with me few days before,on the day itself and family dinner just for me on the day after.

Those were outer happiness.

At that time I understood the feeling of having everything but not the happiness from within.

I guess my 18th birthday was the most memorable one.

Few years back,someone asked me why did I use "wintertears" as my email..

Because as far as I can remember, I have been crying tears that are freezing-cold,silent, and hidden from the world..

Hey!

Don't get me wrong.

I find it easier now to be happy with friends who are always there for me although I don't say it.

I thank God for the trials in my life and also for the best people that he has put to help me through.

This post is kinda short,

but its enough to express the words suppressed within.

I love you guys!

<3

I took an unpaid leave today because I had to go for my eye check-up.

My appointment was at 8am but I got there at 9am.

Malaysian time mah.

=P

I waited for three hours and finally it was my turn.

Guess what?

Dr. Praveen was over-confident with me and he took only five minutes because he was pretty sure that I was okay.

I asked for am MC and he gave it without further questioning.

Hehe.

I went outta the examination room and saw Dr Dinesh.

I gave a loud "HI!!!" and he stopped to talk to me.

Felt kinda proud because he doesn't usually talk alot to his patients.

Haha.

I wanted to go back to work when I left the hospital since Dr Praveen has given me an MC but at dad said that I dont have to because my eyes were still a lil blur effects of those eye drops.

I then decided to go to Euodia's house because I didn't wanna go home.

She found two lil puppies few nights back.

=D

Dad sent me home because I had to keep my medications in the refrigerator.

When I was at the guard house I saw Joshua; the former cell group leader of S2(this is NOT the person kay) which is also my cell group.

He asked me where I had been and where I was gonna go and I told him.

Then he said he'll send me to Euodia's place since he had to go back to church too.

So I followed his car.

He dropped me further up in front of Flamingo Hotel when I saw Euodia throwing dog-shit.

Hahhahahaha!

We ran across,drowning in sweat.

We proceeded upstairs to play with Nina and Nikki,her adorable pups.

=D

Then Willy came.

Played with those puppies for a sec and we went to Ananda for lunch.

Then back to play with 'em.

This is Nina.

This,Nikki and Willy.

Haha.

The three of us went to church after that.

Aunt shouted at me when I got home and began to accuse me of something.

I felt too sick to entertain her unreasonable bullshit.

I am looking forward to go to work tomorrow!

SuiLin has planned to have dinner with me after work.

That means I dont have to get home that early.

Praise God!

=DDD

I'm gonna put a full-stop here.

Have a fitful sleep guys!

Loves.

Hello people..

Hope you guys are alright..

Not gonna keep you guys updated about the bitter stories of my life because if I do,more of you are gonna walk out..

So since we don't work on weekends,my colleague SuiLin and I planned to go out.

She wanted to get a specs like mine so we went to Gurney.

She fetched me to her house before that and I found out that she lives only a few doors away from Rei-chan.

I was talking about driving when we were going down the hill and she decided to let me drive!

I agreed instantly!

*da dan =P*

And I drove all the way to Gurney.

This was the longest distance that I've ever driven.

And usually I only practice at places without cars.

That was real with moving cars!

I thought I was gonna freak out and give up halfway.

But surprisingly I turned out calmer than SuiLin was!

She was so worried!

And cute haha.

I insisted on driving up to the sixth floor to park.

And I did.

It was a good feeling when I managed to successfully park the car!

=D

We then went somewhere and to the seventh floor for her specs.

There were too many similar-looking ones like the one I bought and she took quite some time to make her decision.

Meanwhile I was talking to an uncle nearby.

She got the one she wanted soon after.

Me and Lin Lin.

*just incase you guys didn't know my specs has got power because I sent it to the shop*

=.=

We went to "I love yoo" for lunch.

I have loved that shop since I went to the one in 1Utama.

Lin Lin at I Love Yoo.

I kinda forgotten where we went I just know that we were bored.

Gurney's like my second home.

Before we left Gurney we went to Manila Place.

Lin at Manila Place.

New Wing restroom

Then I decided to get a haircut right at that moment so Lin brought me to the shop.

I became like this.

=O

So random and sudden!

Not used to it.

And I told Jian that I will practice flinging my hair.

I can no longer do that because my hair is kinda short now.

Apalaa...

At last I didn't go to church because I got over-emo and everyone became an eyesore to me.

Its the problem of the heart.

Here's the full stop.

You guys have fun!

Loves.

Hello guys..

As you guys know today was a public holiday.

Rei and I planned to hang around in Prangin because she needed to get the clover thingy.

I got onto the bus and called her when we were gonna reach her place.

My heart screamed when I saw her.

I missed her!

=DDD

Shots taken in the bus and etc.

I sent Rei home in a bus(=P) and got to aunt's house.

Was parading the night market when it rained.

Awesomee!

I love the rain!

<3

And I got back home happy.

I'm freaking tired so I'll let you guys off now.

=P

Night night.

Loves.

Alrights guys!

Happy Valentine's Day!

=DDD

Just like last year I still celebrate Singles Awareness Day(SAD) but this year's is more bearable.

I didn't really bother to wish anyone until they wished me.

LOL

And after disappearing for some time TerFu texted me to wish me Happy Singles Awareness Day.

He's showing off because he's got loads of girls after him at his college.

=P

So I went to TARC as an official staff today.

I was kinda nervous because I'm afraid that I could not catch up with the work.

There are seven people in admission; four males and three females including me.

I find my colleagues funny.

Its good to have them around.

And my cell group leader Alvin barged into the office to say hi since he's studying there.

It was hilarious.

The door sounded like it was gonna break.

=DDD

I talked to one uncle and Jian says I'm cute!

Hahhaha perasan pulak.

=P

I think I'm adapting well in this new environment.

Mr. Yap put me beside SuiLin which becomes my good friend pretty fast since she's the only girl in the office besides me.

The other lady has got her own office room.

Day One was pretty good except that I didn't see "apple juice?" around.

I came back feeling good.

Then I started emo-ing because I saw a sad video on Christian's wall.

And he introduced me to the song Utopia by Within Temptation  (feat Chris Jones) and I became worse than emo.

I was gonna cry..

Then S2 suddenly talked to me in MSN.

Most of you would've known what happened to me next.

Just like the other day, I cannot go on writing anymore..

You guys have fun kay?

Happy Valentine's and I love you guys loads.

*I have discovered that I miss you even more when you talk to me..*

Hello amazing peeps!

How you guys doin?

Life is hard but all will be well okay?

Don't give up at the hardest times.

=)

I'm not saying this to whoever in particular.

Sometimes people just need some encouragement.

We had our "Love on The Rebound" sermon yesterday and today in conjunction with Valentine's Day.

It was breath-taking!

For those of you who had missed this sermon for the "Meow Hui" thingy you guys has gotta regret!

The story was inspiring,funny and sad.

I was usually one of the first few persons to cry.

Then Stephanie on my left started crying.

=(

I was flabbergasted when I turned to my right and saw tears flowing outta Gary's eyes.

I mean,he's a guy and they don't cry easily right?

It must've touched his gentle heart.

One remarkable thing that pastor said was "Love is not a feeling,not an emotion but its a decision".

So true!

I thought alot too.

Sighh.

It made me realize that many things that I thought might be the truth are just what I want them to be.

The truth has gotta hurt more than the fairytale story I wanted.

Pastor did an outstanding job both yesterday and today!

*Actually he always does*

I saw many people surrender their burdens to God.

=D

I saw many friends that I wanted to see which are Taylor,Christian,Alfred,Raymuelio and etc.

Glad that they came.

Got the first Valentine's gift of my life from my cell group leaders.

=)

Today was okay too!

There were more people today.

But today so emo.

I cried before pastor got to the sad part today because I already know the sad part!

And the worst thing is,the smiling side view of that guy sitting in front looked like S2!

I was emo to the core!

But I laughed soon after.

=DDDD

This Mathias thought that Grace's boyfriend was my boyfriend!

I told him that he was Grace's.

Mathias' reaction was epic!

Hahaha!

After church I went to the studio for my first R&B dance lesson.

Then Shannen,Venita and I went to Midlands.

And today ended happily ever after.

*Lazy to write in details*

Ohhh and by the way, I officially resigned from Kumon yesterday.

=(

I missed the laughters and anger that Adrienne and I had experienced while working.

Tomorrow I will be working at TAR College until God-knows-when.

Before I left Kumon yesterday I took a video of Little Vinnesh, the apple of my eye.

<3

Love him!

And from tomorrow onwards I will be back into reality.

No more simplicity nor laughter of innocence.

=(

I'm gonna end this post right here kay?

Take care people!

Loves.

*I'm afraid that I'll wake up to see another person that I love walkin outta my life*

I'm not really in the mood to blog,but there's something that I have to do to correct what I had done.

Meanwhile,I went for interview at TAR College Penang early this morning and got taken in as a temporary assistant and will start working this Monday.

I missed those lil kids already!

=(

And I dreamt that I hugged Shane Dawson!!

Lol gila.

I was emo to the point where I have no response seeing a grasshopper in my house.

Anyways,

Those words below are only meant for that one person that I've hurt yesterday.

So those of you who do not want to know you guys are welcome to leave this page as this has nothing gotta do with you.

Dear person, have you ever wondered why do I always merajuk you?

Maybe I do that coz I somehow got confused with my feelings and the truth.

And each time I get closer to someone I keep wanting to stay away too.

Yesterday I finally erupted because I no longer wanna live in your shadows.

Seeing your page is depressing because I don't exist.

You reply every single human that posted or commented in your profile but you always ignore mine.

I made a conclusion that since my existence is just like a blowing wind why don't you remove any tags or whatever.

You never bothered anyway.

Your action makes me feel unwanted.

And denied.

Remember how I've always asked you to walk out on me?

That's coz I think I have to wake up from this dream.

Now I have to leave this hanging because I cannot go on already.

Take care.

Rei: Sorry..

you're emo and I'm emo this sunday's gonna be a depressing outing.

Sleep tight,love.

Well,like it or not,

this is life.

Bye peeps!

=D

I'm so highhh!

Got my first pay cheque yesterday!!

Guys please don't think that its a huge sum.

Lol

It isn't.

But I am proud of myself.

That is the money that I earn through my hard work.

Life has never felt better.

=DDDD

I'm putting it in a frame until I need to get it deposited

*which is soon coz there's a loan shark in my house*

There were very few students who came yesterday and I ko-ed on the table after a while.

I miss sleeping in class!

Just joking.

XD

Anyways finally I managed to get videos of another few cute students in Kumon!

<3

Presenting 

Yi Yang.

I don't really know this boy because he is Adrienne's student.

but who cares right?

He's still cute!

=D

Secondly,

Daniel

Cheeky boy.

Always do things that teachers ask him not to do.

=D

Last but not least,

Vinnesh!!

He doesn't take English but I always look forward to seeing him!

<3333

Wouldn't it be fun if we could see the world through their eyes?

In kids I see innocence, simplicity and they're genuine.

That is why I love them so.

My complicated world somehow becomes simple when they're around.

I see happiness in them too.

I hope you guys liked my post.

Goodnight peeps!

Loves.

Can't believe I am in a total shut down mode for Chinese New Year...

I became very very whatever.

I don't even bother to collect ang pows..

I think there are only problems when this family gathers around.

Yesterday on the way back from my maternal grandmother's house in Butterworth,

my bro got into a shouting match with aunt.

Finally he knows her habit of accusing everyone.

And I thought we're supposed to be peaceful and noisy in a happy way?

I too,just realized now that we don't have reunion dinners.

We eat our dinners at different times alone.

I was thinking hard as I clean the house today.

I found out that I am becoming more and more like my aunt.

The insecurities,paranoia,doubt,fear,

these comes from the way I was raised.

And I subconsciously imply all these onto other people.

Therefore I would like to apologize to you guys(who happens to be reading this)

for whatever hurt that I have brought upon y'all with my insecurities and such.

One thing that I am different from my aunt.

I take corrections and I don't hate people who corrects me.

So as people around me, DO correct me okay?

And I have determined to somehow leave this place to follow my dream.

I no longer wanna be aunt's puppet.

I will not live in her sexist ways where girls are bullshits and boys are brains.

Wanna prove her WRONG!

I watched the way she treats my niece and nephews.

She's obviously bias and abusive.

I'm sure all of you know that I have an extremely negative thinking.

This was how I got em from.

I still don't get the purpose of this post.

But I felt very much better after typing all these down.

Friends, help me through okay?

I want to be a good friend to everyone as you guys are to me.

Sometimes I'd rather lose a friend than to get hurt.

But this thinking is totally outta place because not everyone will hurt me like those who did.

Rei: gomen ne..

Do forgive me lahh later no one wants to join me in bug-fear.

and also to my few other important victims aka people that mattered in my life..

VJ: I'll stop self-torture and you-torture kay?

=D

Hong: There will be an end to my crying.

Credits to your shoulders.

=X

May: You have your own path to walk now.

I do not want to stop you from doing what you want just because I cant.

and some assurance maybe?

*I'm weird and random*

Rups: I'll always be here and you know it.

=D

Honestly, I think this is kinda lame,uncool or whatever you call it.

But it doesn't matter because I want to correct my mistakes.

So peeps!

Have a good rest and I love you guys loads!

*I love those named up there MORE!*
Some of you don't need to be mentioned.

=D

Loves.

I don't really know how to start this.

Lol

Uhhh

Happy Chinese New Year eve?

I haven't been blogging these few days coz I had some CNY preparation to do.

This time I'm gonna go simple and easy okay?

Monday was just another day.

Waking up.bathe.eat.work.

Was okay until I had problems deciding who to go out with on Tuesday.

Meanwhile, 

I took a video of Yen Jun,another tiny tot in tuition.

I don't usually sayang him that much because he's a mischievous boy.

And he likes to annoy me on purpose.

 =/

Still, lil kids are like that.

So all I did was to be patient with him.

I was kinda distracted because I could not plan Tuesday's outing.

I got a brilliant idea when I got home.

 I would go for lunch with Hong before work and then movie with VJ after work,

so that none would feel unwanted kan?

On Tuesday I went to Gurney and did not watch any movie with Hong because I thought I work at 2pm.

=.=

I'd still thought I work at 2pm if I did not call Adrienne.

We went to Xuan Xin to have lunch.

Well actually,he HAD lunch,not me.

=X

Ah Hong and his -_- face.

Lol.

=)

After lunch,

Hong and I loitered around not knowing what to do.

So we went to fourth floor.

I was super sleepy and I sat in that lil ambulance.

He got into the helicopter next to me.

 His legs freaking long man.

Act-dunno face.

He walked to me to work again.

Learnt not to wear long sleeves or jacket when I have to walk from Gurney to work.

I was perspiring furiously.

And there were only a few students.

=/

Went to Gurney again after work by cab.

Met up with Hong again for a while before VJ came.

Bought tickets for 

I've been wanting to watch this but keeping the movie till VJ got here.

Haha.

I kept feeling bad because I feel like I abandoned Hong.

=/

The movie was kinda scary.

I remained quite calm until the part where the pan dropped from the place.

My left hand goes over and clutched VJ's arm hard.

A lil bit of his skin came off.

=X

After that part

I became violent and kept pulling his sleeve.

I mean, there were only about 20 people in the cinema.

And there were only both of us in our row.

No one sat in those rows in front of us.

Thank goodness the ghost did not wave at the camera.

I would've fainted.

We went to Sakae Sushi for dinner.

Cute!

<3

 chatted a bit.

I would love to stick around longer because I do not know when will I ever see VJ again,

but I had to go.

Ah Hong was waiting for me to go back together by bus.

I felt so sorry for him.

=(

At last Ah Hong asked his dad to take us home because it was kinda late already.

*for my aunt and dad*

So yeah.

I got home good.

At least yesterday was better than my other living days.

Therefore I got to thank ah Hong and VJ for that great day yesterday.

=DDD
Today I went to pray to our ancestors.
I decided to let you guys see where I used to live and how beautiful it still is.

I'm gonna end my post right here alright?
Happy CNY and Happy Holiday guys!
Loves.